All you need is faith, TRUST, and a little pixie dust….

Trust is defined as: firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.

Trust is hard for most people; or maybe it seems that way when it’s you that struggles with it. I do struggle with it. No doubt about it. Trust is a major issue for me. I’m not sure where it started from but I really can’t think of a time that I didn’t trust my parents or any such time growing up. Maybe it was just instilled into me as an adult. Thinking I have to be independent and taking care of myself since no one else was. (That sounds truly bitter, but I’m not.)

When I got married I trusted my husband wholeheartedly and didn’t doubt him for one second. When you get married and are young and naive that’s easy. Well, maybe as you grow closer to God it’s easier no matter what age you are or what season of life your in. For me it was easy. I had no reason to not trust him. Through circumstances in the first few years of our marriage my trust slowly waned. Different little things but it doesn’t matter what; it was slipping.

Just this past week I’ve seen that I need to trust my husband with all my heart and mind and soul. Not just go through the motions but do it like I mean it. I missed yesterday’s Matthew reading so today I started in chapter 21. The barren fig tree:

“Now in the morning as he returned into the city, he hungered. And when he saw a fig tree in the way, he came to it, and found nothing thereon, but leaves only, and said unto it, Let no fruit grow on thee henceforward for ever. And presently the fig tree withered away. And when the disciples saw it, they marveled, saying, How soon is the fig tree withered away! Jesus answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed and be thou cast in to the sea; it shall be done. And all things whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.”

The importance of prayer is so huge and the only way to get over my issue with trust is to pray. Jesus can help me overcome my fear, my lack of faith and most importantly my non-existent trust.

The fig tree is an example of prayer and the POWER of it. If you have faith in prayer anything can be accomplished. The power of it is astounding. Jesus said the tree wouldn’t bear any more fruit. Guess what? It withered right then and there. Bam! No faith, guess what? God can help you with that. Pray and ask for help. Ask for a complete trust to wash over you. Bam! No more worries. Well, you might have some but that’s just doubt creeping back in. Pray again…. keep praying. It doesn’t hurt; only helps.

So, toss out your bag of pixie dust (how did you get that anyway?). All you need is the first two: Faith and trust and add a little prayer in too…


True Surrender

Matthew 19 today and boy what a culmination of the whole week’s worth of teaching rolling together in one huge ball today! Complete and true surrender. That is all it takes.

Sunday during Bible Study time we are going through Lisa Terkeurst’s book “The Best Yes.” This lesson was on “one wise woman” in second Samuel. Making godly decisions and being wise. What is the best yes for me at this time and what can I cut back on or out completely out of my life to help me make those right and wise decisions? We’ve learned that God’s Word is wisdom. True and complete wisdom. Nothing hard to believe about that. But actually putting things into practice is always another story, right?

Well, then on Wednesday night we’ve been going over True Spirituality (w/ Chip Ingram) following through Romans 12. Last night we dissected verse one. Just one verse, but oh so powerful. Sometimes there are risks in Christianity but the rewards may be great. They are great. Heaven sounds pretty awesome and great. That being the major reward, I think. But what does it take to be a Romans 12 Christian? Risks. And being able to say yes to those risks and trusting in God. Having a complete surrender towards Him. And only Him. Not to ourselves and our earthly desires and pleasures. Surrender = True Commitment.


We learned also how to deal with risks in your Christian life. You need: Truth, Knowledge and Faith.

So, moving away from last night’s study and then this morning I get out my bible to read the chapter I’m on: 19 in Matthew. Reading through the story of the rich young ruler really brought things together for me. This guy thought he was all that (and a bag of potato chips) and said that he kept all the commandments but when Jesus tells him to SURRENDER his earthly-no-good-probably-pricey things he leaves saddened because he had “great possessions.”

All it takes is surrendering to Him. Everything, every part of my life, every item that I own, even my own children. I surrender them to the one who makes me whole, the one who gives me life, the one who stores up our riches in heaven. The ONE and ONLY. Jesus.
True Surrender? Yes please.


What kind of platter do you want?

Reading through Matthew has been an eye opener and I’ve read so much that I’ve never read or read and didn’t remember. Like I didn’t know there were TWO instances of feeding thousands. I always thought (or was taught) that there was the five thousand and there were the twelve baskets left over and all that. And the little boy. Remember him? The one that had the fish and loaves? I always thought he belonged to feeding of the five thousand. Ha! Gotcha. It was really the feeding of the FOUR thousand. (Men, that is.) My mind has been blown, right? Well, maybe not.

What I found interesting is how much sex is a part of daily life, today and yesteryear. Even in the bible times. Case in point: the beheading of John the Baptist. If I can, and I will since I’m writing this, I want to back it up just a little bit and talk about how vail Herod was. The first one. He named his sons after him. More than one. Very interesting little tidbit for you. So, this story takes place with a Herod (a son) and his niece doing a little dance that was lascivious aka: naughty! Now, this girl was as wicked as they come. She married her Uncle and then when she went into his brother house, the brother convinced her to divorce the other guy and marry him! Wow, someone was a little misguided…..

So after this naughty dance the king who is sooo under her spell asks her to name something, ANYTHING, he can give her to repay her for this awesomeness. So, since she’s pretty wicked and knew this was going to happen and having a wicked mommy who already told her what to ask for she’s set. John the Baptist’s head on a platter. Doesn’t that just scream: HAPPY PARTY!! ? What, no? It doesn’t?
Well, the king (Herod) is actually a little saddened at her request. I think that’s one of the questions I want to ask God when I see Him. Why was he sad? Because he didn’t really want to kill John or because that’s what she asked for instead of maybe sleeping with him or jewels or something really cool?

Today I was reading in Chapter 16 about the Pharisee’s asking for a sign and Jesus telling them off that they know they shouldn’t be asking for a sign. They should be believeing.
What has been getting to me is the many times that Jesus tells his disciples and people He meets that they shouldn’t tell anybody what he does, or has done or will do. There are numerous times He says this and it really makes me question it. What does he mean by it? I know earlier in the book of Matthew He was saying that He didn’t want his death to come too early but is that still the meaning of it? Maybe it’s something really simple and I’m just not getting it.