Comfort Zone 101

So, this week has been hectic. Let me start over. These past two weeks have been crazy with my reading schedule. Meaning, I’ve put other things ahead of actually sitting down with my bible and notebook and reading. As is such I’ve been reading like mad trying to catch up. Still working on it. Down five or six chapters to where I am supposed to be. But it’s actually been nice reading more than one chapter. Feels like I’m reading a “book,” instead of my bible! Weird, but I think that’s one of the reasons I wasn’t really reading my bible. Because it’s not a book to me. Weird mindset, I know. But oh well. I’m weird. And I know it.

Reading through the plagues for me was really an eye opener because I remember all the kiddie stories and songs that go along with it and I’ve always looked past what’s in the bible. Actually written there. For me. I don’t remember ever learning that the plagues weren’t each told to Pharoh. Some were “surprises.” See, I thought Moses went to Pharoh after each attempt to get God’s people out and said: “look here Pharoh! Release God’s people or He’s going to do ______!” Totally not how it worked out. Surprised? I was. If you weren’t, I wasn’t either….

Also pretty interesting was that God put up a division between the children of Israel and the Egyptians when he was doing some of the plagues. Verse 22 of Chapter 8 says:

And I will sever in that day the land of Goshen, in which my people dwell, that no swarms of flies shall be there; to the end thou mayest know that I am the Lord in the midst of the earth.

In my bible it says that it was “demonstrating that the Lord can preserve His own people while judging Egypt.” God is might. He is powerful and He is just. Duh.
Thought it was pretty neat that even some of the Egyptians heeded God’s warnings about the plagues and they weren’t “hurt” by them. Like when the disease came to the cows, some of the Egyptians in Pharohs own house made sure there animals weren’t out and they put them up because they believed. And then when the Israelite’s finally left Egypt some of the Egyptians went with them. It mentions it in Chapter 12 (vs. 38):

And a mixed multitude went up also with them; and flocks and herds, even very much cattle.

I’m up to Chapter 14 now and it really hit me hard today. FIGHT! If ever there was a word I need to hold in my heart, it’s that. And I don’t mean picking fights or fistfights or something crazy like that. What I mean is that I need to FIGHT for my Lord. Simple things that could be everyday. Like reading my bible; I need to FIGHT the devil and get in the Word. See? Simple things. The Lord fights for me too. Something I need to remember every day, all day. I’m special enough to God that He loves me and He wants what is best for me and He will FIGHT for me!
When I was reading this chapter, that verse (14) stuck out to me like a sore thumb. I love it. I need to memorize it too. NEED TO MEMORIZE IT. (If I write it in all caps it will stick with me…..I hope!)

In this Chapter the Israelites have finally been “let go,” and there waiting at the riverside. They see the Egyptians coming. Probably a pretty scary sight. I’ve never seen chariots in person and have no idea how menacing they look but I’m sure hundreds upon hundreds of them scattering up dust and battle cries being screamed would make my heart skip a beat. Or two or three…. So what do I do? I mean they do? They cower down and say to Moses (or me to God) Why did you take us out of our comfort zone? Sure, we were slaves. Sure, we did horribly difficult things and suffered tremendously. Why, oh why did you have to take us away from that so that we could die here in the woods?

I don’t think many people like to go out of their comfort zone. If they did, I don’t think we would have “comfort zones.” It would just be space. And there we are. And there you are. And you want to come to my space? Ok. It’s not comfortable, it’s not not comfortable. It’s just there. And here we are.

I love my comfort zone and I’m cozy in it. Some things on my heart though are to put myself out there more. Like at morning exercise, God put it in my path to speak up to the ladies there and invite them a church event we’re having. Did I? No, I chickened out. Big time. Another thing is that I really want to go on a missions trip. Have I looked up airline tickets? Yes; have I emailed missions? Yes, but have I told anybody at the church my desire? Nope. Why? I have no idea. Fear of being told no? I don’t know, but I think it’s because I don’t want to “die” in the woods. I want to be in my comfort zone……


“Who, me?!?”

Oh Moses. Oh, dear, sweet, scared, doubting Moses. God comes to you; in a BURNING BUSH. A burning bush and you still doubt Him? He turns your hand leprous and then cleans it, and you doubt Him? The whole deal with the snake/rod thing…. I guess you can’t really judge what you would do in a time like that. God asks far less of me, and still I doubt. I am scared. I act without faith. Oh dear, sweet, scared, doubting Holly….

I missed yesterday’s reading, a wonderful day spent getting things ready for my sister’s baby shower coming up. I did miss reading but it was a relaxing and restful day. Even with all the stuff that was done.


I’m going over my notes that I’ve written for the two chapters and I’m wondering if I read the same chapter twice! I picked out verses 10-11 on both chapter three and chapter four as “stand out” to me.
Come now, therefore, and I will send thee unto Pharoh that thou mayest bring forth my people, the children of Israel out of Egypt. And Moses said unto God Who am I, that I should go unto Pharoh and that I should bring forth the children of Israel out of Egypt?

And Moses said unto the Lord, Oh my Lord. I am not eloquent neither heretofore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: for I am slow of speech and of a slow tongue. And the Lord said unto him: Who hath made mans mouth? Or who maketh the dumb or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord?

Why does Moses keep asking Why, me Lord? He grew up in Pharoh’s house. Wouldn’t that dawn on you that you  have somewhat intimate knowledge of the Pharoh and his household and how it’s run? You know your way around Egypt… baffles my mind sometimes. I know, I know. God knew all this and He has His mighty plan and everything works for the good of Him. Still confuses me. Sometimes.

When Moses asks who he should say sent him, isn’t that sign that he will go? Then he hems and haws around until finally God says: Fine, I’ll get Aaron to go with you, you big baby!! (I may have added some words in there…)
Side Note: I remember as a kid some Sunday School lesson or discussion in youth group or somewhere along the line we did a study on Moses and Aaron and I remember someone saying that Moses probably had a stuttering problem and that’s why Aaron went with him. Besides that God had planned on it. It stuck with me, not sure if it’s true. One of the things I want to ask God with I see Him.

What really stuck with me today was that how often do I make excuses to do something? And how often do I ignore God when he talks to me; blatantly and not. Some things to ponder on today and this week.


Girl Power

When I was younger, like grade school, I wrote a song called Girl Power. Not very interesting, I know. But writing the title it reminded me of this silly, non feminist, Spice Girl influenced, cheesy (I’m sure) song. I had to put that in.

Today’s reading of Exodus chapter 2 went much better than my thoughts of it would be. Oh me of little faith! The kids played all by themselves while I was reading with only one minor interruption. Thank you Jesus for that little token of wonderfulness!

I have to admit before I go into the chapter that I was sooo looking forward to reading my bible this morning. I almost had to read the chapter ahead of time just to see what it was going to say. I haven’t been excited or anxious about reading my bible in a long time. … I’m trying to think of when I was EVER anxious to read it and I honestly can’t remember a time. There may have been but if you’ve read any of my past posts than you would see that I don’t remember much, much of the time! But it feels awesome to be excited about God’s Word. It sure lifts my mood and I can see a difference in yesterday than the past week.

So, chapter two. Oh, what a story. First off, my heart just breaks thinking about Moses mother. Here it is, Pharoh decreeing that all male children should be killed (but not the girls) and bam! Out pops a boy. There were no sonograms back then and I’m sure they had their own “old wives tales.” I can picture all the expectant moms just being so nervous about their baby being born a boy and someone finding out and killing them (if it was a boy). Back to Moses’ mother: she has her baby and he was “a goodly child.” (or “exceedingly fair” from my KJV’s notes). She was able to hide him for three months….Sure babies sometime look gender neutral but trying to pass over a boy may have been a bit difficult. My heart wrenches over it. You know your baby is supposed to die, and your wishing and hoping with all your might that it won’t go through……

Thankfully, well God’s Sovereign plan, tells us his mom is smarty pants. Ok, she’s just smart; I doubt she wore pants. She made an “ark” and sent her daughter, Miriam, to the river where she knew Pharoh’s daughter would be bathing. Cunning maybe is a better word. (I bet she played cards well, if she played.) Lo and behold here comes the princess and she see’s something and inside is a baby. And when she opened up the “ark” the “baby wept.” She had compassion on him; her motherly instinct was kicking in. Go her.

Now, while I was reading this chapter I kept on checking on my little notes in my bible. It’s a KJV study bible and the notes are awesome and really helpful, especially during these chapters (and yes I realize it has only been two chapters).

In verse 10 of chapter two it says:  “And the child grew, and she brought him unto Pharoh’s daughter, and he became her son. And she called his name Moses: and she said, Because I drew him out of the water.”

My “study” section tells me that women are the primary reason Israel stayed in tact. (I’m paraphrasing that a tiny bit but I’ll explain what I mean. Or what that means to me.) Throughout the first two chapters Pharoh is trying to get rid of the Hebrew people. He wants all the male children killed; what do the midwives do? They keep on delivering male babies. Male babies are being hidden: Moses’ mother saves hers. Even Pharoh’s own daughter adopts a Hebrew baby and brings him to “court.”

Women play a huge part in how things happen. Because of these things the kings impotence of destroying the Hebrew people are exposed! Girl Power.

Even further into the chapter God keeps on showing us these little examples and predictions about what would come to pass. How exciting. More to come…..


The Midwives

Today I embarked on a wonderful (at least I hope it will be) journey to reading through the bible. I don’t think I’ve ever read through the whole bible my entire life. So, through some comments not even aimed at me, I took it upon myself to do this. I should, anyway. I’m a Christan; I say I am, yet I haven’t read through God’s Word? I would say I don’t have the time, but it’s just laziness…..who are we kidding?

So, I joined an online bible study/reading group and today it was my job/task/joy to read Exodus chapter 1. (Now, I know I’ve read through Exodus, because I started reading through the bible once and only made it to Numbers. Hopefully that counts for something…..right?) Before I started reading I prayed that God would open up my eyes and give me wisdom and discernment in what I read.

Side note: Life with two little ones is a lot of fun. A lot. Most of the time. Guess what? When your trying to read your bible or have your devotion time? Not so much. Thankfully Jonah loves to play all by himself and he was happy out in the porch (bundled up, mind you since the temperate is below 75!) and Abby J is sitting at the table with me. Now, I’m dreading the moment she opens up her mouth to ask me something because I am so into reading. Well, the moment comes and lo and behold, it’s not so bad. She wants me to read what I’m reading aloud. Glory be to God! Or as one of my friends used to say ALL the time: Praise the LORD!

I was able to read through the chapter twice UN-interrupted again.  Then the questions started to come fast and furiously from my little bundle of energy. And not biblical questions like I was thinking….nope! “Can you help me go to the bathroom?, Can you get me a drink of apple juice?, Can I color with your highlighters/markers?,  Can you play with me?, Can you…… Finally I made her get down from her chair and go figure something out to play with.

After I cleared my head and put my focus on what was at hand I got down to brass tacks…..(I’ve just always wanted to say that- I got down to work!) My first “question” was to ask my self which verses really touched me or jumped out at me. I went back through the chapter again and vs.17-20 did.
“But the midwives feared God and did not as the King of Egypt commanded them, but saved the men children alive. And the king of Egypt called for the midwives and said unto them: Why have ye done this thing, and have saved the men children alive? And the midwives said unto Pharoh, because the Hebrew women are not as the Egyptian women, for they are lively and are delivered ere the midwives come in unto them. Therefore God dealt WELL with the midwives and the people multiplied, and waxed very mighty”

It makes me smile. Can’t you see Shiphrah and Puah? Just standing there in front of Pharoh, cool as cucumbers (in my imagination at least!), telling him it’s the Hebrew women. There too fast…. It makes me LOL. They didn’t fear Pharoh; they trusted God. And God blessed them “WELL!!!”
My mind plays this mini movie of them and all that I read and I think it helps to have the verses sink in.

I have to say that I can’t wait to read tomorrow’s…….